Weekly rewind #10 and #11
“Some things are up to us and some are not”
I wish it were that easy...
Weekly rewind
👩🏽💼 Work has been very difficult lately. Not only did I have a lot to do, but I also received news from my boss that there had been a complaint about the way I was working. The thing is, the complaint was far from the truth and, luckily, my boss knows how I work. She de-escalated the situation very quickly and gave me her support. Nevertheless, this still needs to be reported to higher levels, and I’ll be traveling next week to work with the people involved in the complaint. I was very sad because I couldn’t believe that people think they can simply lie their way out of their responsibilities. I mean, they can lie as much as they want—sooner or later those lies will catch up with them. But dragging others into it? That is simply mean.
🏥 Wanda is much, much better now with her dermatitis. We are taking care of her as much as possible, and when I come back from my trip, we’ll change a few things at home; we need a stricter routine. Not only for her or Pietro (who got sick, missed a whole week of school, and ended up with me in the ER) but for us too. We are tired of always running, always being late, and always being tired.
🧹 My decluttering process has gotten me absolutely nowhere. I am just upset all the time because this tiny apartment is always a mess; the kids are always sick, and stuff accumulates like bricks in a wall. I removed a lot of things and clothes, but the fact is: we are four people living in a small place, and we need most of the things we own. I've been trying to be more grateful; I mean, it is a good apartment. We don't pay rent (only the building fees and utilities), and we have a good life. I think it's more about my mood than anything else. And of course, a messy space never helps.
🧠 Because of all this, my mental health has not been at its best. The only thing that makes me feel good is being with the kids and Oleg. I don't have any mental health issues, luckily. I think I’m usually too angry to collapse, but this week I felt the sadness that comes from realizing there are mean people around me. And it’s like the news: news anchors mostly tell us about the bad things that are happening and almost never say anything about the good ones. Well, that’s what the last two weeks have felt like—a permanent TV news show.
Watching
📺 This week I continued rewatching some episodes of "The Mentalist" while Oleg was traveling.
🎥 Wanda, Pietro and I went to the movies and watched "Hoppers". It was a really nice and fun movie.
🎥 I watched with Oleg "War machine" on Netflix. I love those kinds of movies, no great story but plenty of action. Just what I needed, didn’t make me think too much.
Reading / Listening
📚 I finished "Fahrenheit 451" by Ray Bradbury in English. I am amazed that 70 years later, it describes our society so accurately. I mean, the parlors (those gigantic TV walls that bombard people with constant content) feel very much like our society today, with its endless scrolling.
📚 I'm also part of a virtual book club and I got to read some very interesting authors from Brazil and Barbados.
🎧 I continue listening Bach- Complete Cello Suites performed by Jean-Guihen Queyras and other classical music albums. The Ned Flanders “driving himself to the mental institution” vibes are still there...
Fitness log
Nothing to log. I am in survival mode.